We're all god. Most people just haven't realized it yet. The spark of life, the ability to create.The transcendent effect of re-compiling all the data we gather and
making something new. That's god. Imagination is god. Even the gods
that humans worship, were all created from some other human's
imagination. And we can all do it, we all dream, we all think. Some
more than others.
But it's all about the recording of contemplation.
We're all bombarded with enough data every day to come up with
something extraordinary. The most exemplary creators are the ones who
know how to use it for their benefit, either by having learned to use
it, or by some random chance have been able to do so since they
started. We're all god and we're all powerful. Some people don't want
you to know that.
They don't want you to realize you have any power
at all. They keep you in the dark because they want to control you.
They fall in love with power over others. They're not evil, nor are
they good. Those are both just words. Even actions don't really
matter and can't be judged. Some people can argue over moralities
about what's bad and what isn't, but it's all really just opinions
that we've adopted because we were indoctrinated with them. Killing
1000 men or never harming a fly, as far as I'm concerned neither has
any real impact at this point in humanity.
We're all tiny doomed ants
in a giant ocean of cosmic dust for now. I'm not a violent man
myself, but I often wonder why others are. It could be some left-over
self defense mechanism from an early ancestor still buried within
their DNA. It could be the love of the feeling of power over others
as mentioned earlier. I'm not entirely sure.
Whenever I feel like
being violent myself I always imagine water. I feel like a glass of
water is the best analogy for what I feel the universe is inside my
head. It's like a glass of water, and we're all molecules that think
we're separate, but we're all just parts of the same fluidity. Except
the water is pure energy. I got this idea from the fact that all the
energy in the universe is a constant. I could be wrong, but my
understanding of the third law of thermodynamics is that energy
cannot be created or destroyed, only transferred. When the universe
was arranging itself into what it looks like today, it was
compressing itself down to a ridiculously small size, so all the
energy in the universe was crammed together. So all the people I find
contempt-able, the broken chunks of concrete on the highway we drive
on. It was all crammed up against what eventually became me.
So
there's really nothing to get mad at aside from yourself, because
you're just a water molecule inside a glass of water that is
expanding and contracting periodically. I used to be afraid of dying.
But then I realized I'm probably not going to be very afraid when I'm
dead. Or what exactly happens when I die. I don't really believe in a
god, at least not from a text-book standard view. But I'm sure it's
possible that nothingness might not be the only possibility for what
happens to my consciousness when I cease to be, if I even cease to
be. I'm not even sure if I really even can die, seeing as I've never
done it before.
More recently than fearing death I've wanted it to
happen. I was in a situation that caused large amounts of
self-loathing because I forgot the important lesson of not taking
life seriously. And I was also incredibly lonely. I don't want to die
anymore though, because I remembered. As far as I currently know,
nothing is permanent, including sadness. I think it really is like
Bill Hicks said, and this is all just a ride. Sometimes it's scary
and sometimes it's fun. Right now I'd say my ride is uncertain, but
I'm okay with not knowing right now. I still have a lot ahead of me.
I love music, and
poetry, and film, and media in general that can trigger an
instantaneous emotional response. Kind of like video games. Video
games are in my opinion the ultimate forms of creative media. It's
such a wondrous sensation to be listening to a song and feeling like
it describes how your current state of mind. Or sometimes even
better, when it puts you in an entirely new one.We all
need a new spin every once in a while. And a lot of the time they can
be pretty fun. I also enjoy the social bonding aspect of it too. It's
hard to have a bad time if you're partaking in an activity with
partners who share similar interests.
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